What Do You Do When You Missing A Certain Person?

Dear you,

Hi, it's me obviously. I write this open anon letter, dedicated for you. Even though I know you won't read this anyway. But this week had been a rough week for me. And if I don't spill my mind into words, i think i'll be insane.

I saw your profile picture and your name in my friends list, most of the times. I ain't saint, but trust me I always say your name in my prayers. I want to confess, I have this big crush on you since the very first time. To see you doing fine in your instagram stories and have this kind of daydreaming if we end up being together, those are things that keep me sane. But the fact that you don't even care with how's my day makes me stumble upon everything I step.

Lately I've been caught in the middle of move on so I can avoid being hurt. Or take a risk being hurt so I can see if things work out. Somehow, at some point I know you are bad for me. And I should go away. But there's something screaming deep in the root of my heart, for me to not let you go. For me to put on some efforts.

Do you know how many stories that I put on instagram everyday just to see if you are care?
Do you know how many instagram stories that I deleted because you only saw it?
Do you know how many times I imagine what if we end up being together?
Do you know that I still hurt myself just to keep me alive?
Do you know that I tend to sleep early just to avoid missing you?
Do you know that I cry because I know the fact that I really crave for your affection?
Do you know that I listen to all the songs you've heard?
Do you know that I keep on repeat all songs you've sang for me?
Do you know that I can't forget your voice and all of our conversations?
Do you know that every single night I keep on hoping you will suddenly call me?
Do you know how many guys I try to talk with everyday just to keep me busy?
Do you know how many of my writings are actually talking about you?
Do you know how many times i re-read all of your writings?
Do you know that I often go to your profile and gain another false hope?
Do you know how it feels when you say you want me but you lie?

Do you know that I miss you,
and I really do?




sincerely,
your admirer






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